My Day (Not a Fun or Interesting Post)

Only slept 4 hours... 

Got up at 8, 

Had class 9-12, 

Went straight to training, 

Got done at 6, 

Typed notes for Student Accesibility Services, 

Did my homework for class, 

Worked on RCRs for almost 2 hours... 

Only halfway done

I'm exhausted... 

I'm gonna skip reading the chapter for tomorrow, 

And sleep... 

Tomorrow...

Class 9-12 again, 

Then a meeting 12-1, 

Training from 1-6:30, 

And then more notes, 

Homework, RCRs... 

And then doing bulletin boards....

Strange Dream... Let Me Tell You About It...

So, I took a rather long nap... longer than I intended

I fell asleep around 2, and didn't get up till 6

I had a weird dream... very strange

My dreams are getting progressively stranger...

Of everything I dreamed, one of the strangest was the last

I had a dream that I was a French girl, living in Paris 

It was an older time period, and I know that

Because I was wearing one of the giant, hoopskirted dresses

And giant pantaloon things underneath...

Plus, these really pretty, jewel enncrusted ballet-type slippers

Which I guess technically are a modern shoe, 

But in my dream, they fit right in...

Wow, giant digression... but it matters, I suppose

Anyway...

My mother (who was not my actual, real life mother...

I've never seen this woman before)

Okay, another digression... Usually, I dream about real people

But lately, it's been a lot of people I've never met before

Either way... 

Basically, I was getting into a carriage, 

I overhead my mother talking to another woman

She apparently decided that I was supposed to go to America

So, I flipped out... I yelled, "America?!"

And this boy, I think he was the other woman's son...

Appeared and said, "This is how you told her?"

And then I was yelling, "You knew?!?!"

I jumped out of the carriage

I was running up the hill, trying to rip off my jacket

And the boy was running after me... he was in love with me

And I was laying on the ground, ripping off my shoes

Trying to take off my jacket, which was stuck on one arm

He very softly was telling me "I think you ought to keep that..."

It was cold... but I was sobbing, saying, 

"I don't want it, I don't want it..." Flailing my arm...

Finally the jacket came off, and then he saw my shoes were off too

And made a comment, very quiet, and really insightful

That I wanted the shoes off because they were French

And he talked about "ballet" being French

So then I was crying and cradling the shoe...

All of a sudden, it was like watching a movie

And it wasn't me anymore, it was Gaby Hoffman

(she's in Now and Then, and a few other movies)

The boy was the guy from Wedding Crashers

(the one that paints the picture... Todd)

So then, she finally sat up, and was crying

He said something to her, but I don't remember what

But then a voice-over said, "And so she married Anguille"

And then they kissed, and I woke up.

Perfectly Lovely Day

So, today was just about the best day ever

Honestly and seriously, the best day I've had in a while

I slept in, then showered and went to Dan's office

Picked up the random extra filing cabinet

(Which my record player fits nicely on)

And then came back to my room...

Britt and A.J. called, 

Wanting to know if I wanted to go to the beach

They found this really nice park

That's not too far from Kent at all...

So we all went swimming...

A.J. brought his Scrabble towel,

Which comes with little foam, waterproof letters

So the three of us played Scrabble,

Right there on the beach!

It was amazing on so many levels

Because it felt very real and spontaneous

And made me feel different and special...

I'm insane, I know...

Afterwards, we stopped at Dairy Queen

And had ice cream on the way home.

I took a quick shower, then went to dinner 

Aaron cooked!  My favorite!  

And we chatted and had a leisurely dinner

It was nice to just sit and talk

And then I went back to my room

To do laundry and some more unpacking...

Then I went upstairs and watched TV with Katie C.

Jon and Kate Plus 8 had their season premier...

It was exciting... We shared our opinions

On everyone and everything about the show

Whilst it was playing... which made it HILARIOUS

And even though I'm thoroughly frustrated

Because this stupid internet isn't working

(I had to type this out in notepad originally)

It was a really nice night.

Class starts tomorrow... wish me luck!

Summer "Vacation"

Well, I finished classes a week ago.  

Which would have been Friday, the 15th.

And I'm almost done with my week of vacation

Sunday, I move into my new room

And then, since Monday is Memorial Day

I start my summer classes

And training for summer staff...

On Tuesday.  And that's it... that's my vacation.

I was home for the first few days...

I got to see Celia, spend a little time with Mom and Dad

And even hung out with Donny and some of his friends.

Now, I'm staying at Britt and Aud's for the second night.

I'll be here until Sunday, when (presumably)

They help me move into my new room...

I'm actually really excited for the new building.

The room is really big, and I'll have space for stuff...

Maybe I'll actually be able to use my record player...

Well, on a regular basis.  I always use it.  It's my baby.

On a side note... I miss my staff... All of them

I mean, I knew I'd miss some of them

But it's surprising how odd I feel to not have 

All the staff dinners and staff meetings...

Sigh...

For now, I'm gonna go get ready for bed...

Hopefully I'll think of something interesting before too long

And you'll get a decent blog post...

End of Another Year

Well ladies and gentlemen, 

Here I am at the end of yet another academic year.  

I am completely amazed at how surreal this all feels to me.  

I'm a senior in college now... I can't believe it

Yesterday, mostly everyone left.

I only have a few residents here

And also, most of the RAs are gone...

I had to say goodbye to Connie this morning

Which was incredibly difficult to do...

Anyway, I have more to say,

But I don't have the time to say it...

Much packing must be completed before tomorrow.

Goodnight and good luck...

Still Night

Okay, so I wrote this one Wednesday night, and it's not nearly as whiney and depressing as it sounds... I was actually in a very peaceful, quiet mood... Either way, here it is...

I watch the leaves rustle, as I rustle with them;

The wind lifting my hair…

Now, I think, I am truly alone, though I hear voices behind me.

My fingers tremble unwillingly.

 

It is dry now, but the water still glistens on the grass.

My stomach is full of the butterflies which are no longer outside,

For they ought to be sleeping.

The chill gusts raise goose bumps against bare flesh,

Reminding me I am real.

 

The moonlight kisses my cheeks softly… A fairy caress.

My eyes blink slowly, deliberately as I watch the lights in the distance

And I am empty, and alone… and it is quiet, and peaceful

But out there, in the moonlight, I know in my heart that something waits for me

And I won't always be alone...

What Connie Said

Tonight, my friend Connie and I were watching a movie...

It was Love Actually, which was, in case you wondered

Very very good...

And I thought it would make me sad, but it didn't...

Because even though the guy in the movie that reminded me of me

Kind of got a raw deal, I got the feeling

That he was going to be okay either way...

But I digress... what I really wanted to touch on

Was something that Connie said,

And it made me actually stop and think for a second.

At one point, I got agitated, looked at her, and said,

"Why isn't he running after her?!?! Why won't anyone run after anyone?"

And Connie just very simply said, 

"Nobody runs after anyone in real life, Amanda."

She's right.

My Meadow, My Sanctuary

There is a field of daisies 

And we are lying on a bed of clover

Off in the distance is a hill 

Covered with the fluff of dandelions.

Each floating seed carrying on its back

My wish that this is an infinite moment

That your arms will always be around me

And I am always warm in their embrace

One arm is under me, your hand on my shoulder

While I am turned into you, pressed to your side 

We are both smiling as you kiss my forehead

Your eyes sparkle in the sunshine

We share secrets with one another

And you sing to me, softly

Willing me to sing along

The harmony gentle as we lay, supine

I can hear the wind whisper, then start to shout

As dark clouds roll in, and the sky turns an angry gray

And worry crosses your face

Your eyes cloud and darken with the sky

The meadow shakes with the first loud thunderclap

A thunderclap that is one and the same

With the one that shakes my room

Waking me from my dream of you

So now, not only am I alone,

But the storm makes me wish terribly 

That there was someone more to hold me

Than the stuffed rabbit I now clutch, terrified…

The mattress, soft beneath me

Would be a welcome comfort any other night

But is as concrete on a night

When only moments before I laid in the comfort of your arms

The lightning illuminates my room

A poor mockery of the sun I thought I felt only moments ago

And the blankets now pulled up to my chin

A pitiable substitute for your arms

And worst of all, what I imagined as the gentle dandelion seeds

Bearing my wishes to eternity

Is the rain falling on my face

Through the open window above me

Dear night, kind darkness

Envelope me in delicious quiet

Hold me in your dim caress

Please let me stay for days to come.

Dearest sleep, gentle slumber

Take me back to the meadow, the flowers, the gentle wind

Take me back to nights gone by in his arms

Pray, let me rest my head on the clover

May 5, 2009-- 3:29 a.m.