3:00 a.m. And Awake

Regardless of how this might sound,

This is a HAPPY post

And I want you to know that.

Tonight, after a long week,

I went to go see a movie, by myself

And it was me in the dark

With my popcorn

Really watching the movie

And for a few hours, I was somewhere else

Afterwards, I felt lovely

And real

I ran to do some errands

And I still felt real

And okay

Even though I was by myself

And I realized there's something

I've been hanging on to

For a long time now

And tonight, I'm finally ready

To let that go

While I was thinking all this

In the car by myself

I took out my phone to record it

So I wouldn't forget 

Exactly what I wanted to say

And I hope I never forget

How I've never heard myself

Sound that steady and calm

And I know that I'll be okay